Well?

What do people do when it's "18 and out" and they need somewhere to stay in the summer and at Christmas during college holidays, though they and their family don't have money for that?

A Bad Life

I don't know if I should have kids because my life is sad.

College

I'm afraid if I did English or Art, I'd become a commercial worker or teacher.  Maybe Psychology? though I want to go on and not be a counselor, you know a Doctorate/PhD.

I can do art on the side etc.  I still dream of doing something professional in music/violin.

It seems Psychology is more expansive than Sociology.  I could still study racism.

College?

I'm thinking of doing English and Violin in college.  I want to write stories or play in an orchestra / ensemble/s etc.

My other thought was maybe Psychology or something like Sociology.  Whatever it is, I'm hoping for a Doctorate/PhD.  I suppose if you have a doctorate in Psychology, you can study to fix problems with how people think.  A lot of people teach, too, even Stephen Hawking, a scientist.  If you don't want to, I suppose you don't have to.  You can meet with people maybe outside the college setting.  It seems some people teach because they are raising a family.  One of my music teachers said so online.

I suppose a career in science looks mighty attractive.

Oh, and don't forget, art-

What can I do now to get accomplished?

It seems too late for me to be a ballerina.  I can go back to music in some way.  I was kinda on a roll.  I'm good at studying.  Should I try that, and am I too old for some of that?

Wondering

I wonder if it was a bad idea to try to see the orchestra from Germany and go to a workshop because it's nice I didn't make it I have all this money.

Also, if I am to really leave, why do I have a hamster?  Well, some group homes allow it.  It's not supposed to be soon.  These hamsters live about 2-3 years, too, and I could give it away if I could find that place, again.  I was thinking of returning it after I got it, got it because I liked it so I wouldn't miss the opportunity simply.  It escaped, though, after the first night or so.  Not sure if it'd be good to bring back now, after running around the garage, which is a bit dirty in some places, though I have attempted to clean it, and it is my room.  It seemed to bloat up after that.  It feel, apparently, from a low table.  I do like it, though.  It is good to have, unless it gets in the way of a group home.

I am lucky to be where I am, may graduate with my AA in 1 semester owing nothing.  I live in Florida and am going online to The Baptist College of Florida.  I just realized this and changed to this program to finish faster.  This may open up doors for me.  So, there are some things to be thankful for that are going right and the money I get from SSI and probably the 2nd stimulus check I think July 20th.  I can save some of it.  I won't waste it, hopefully.

The End of a Generation of "Kids" and My Life

It seems like it went from Titanic (1997) or Pirates of the Caribbean (2003) ... to adulthood.

Then, of course, by 2006, everyone went crazy...  It died down, in a way, but people still have problems.  That's what I see having moved to Orlando because I came home from college and my family moved here partly because of Hurricane Katrina hitting New Orleans and the area.  My dad had also gotten laid off years before.  We moved here in 2005, and I came home from college more permanently in 2006.  I was told I was too shy for my major and didn't know what to do.  I wanted to be an actor, but I thought it took sacrifice to get in shape etc. rather than finding my way back into a college.  It was tough, and I was tired from some problems and catching up on sleep.  It took years, and then I got on pills, a lot for diabetes.  The pills make me tired, now, but I could get off them, might take a lot more exercise.  They gym closed down during lockdown.

Enabler

Making someone a public figure or making yourself one makes you dibs when you otherwise wouldn't be, depending on if you are popular.

"Raising Hell"

Why was the world of Late Generation X allowed to raise "Hell" about people who give you the warm fuzzies or whatever it is called, like Tim Burton, not really a performer and not really a normal worker, as he's in film and film art.  I mean, people think one person will be best and not everyone will get to know them or live with them like their kids... not something I inquire about in such a way but know it's an interesting way to be friendly with others to suggest it, like writing a story.

Opportunity

Did you have the opportunity to succeed in music?

If not, did you find anything else just as interesting to you?  I like art and ballet, too.  I think my arms are too long to be a cute ballerina...  I guess music served as a happy medium, not too serious finding piano, during puberty.  I plan to do ballet with opportunity as an adult who's not advanced.  It's also necessary therapy as exercise and aesthetic performance.  I'm still 34?  A lotta people still young in their 50s, considerably today.

"Being Different"

You can be "different" and grouped as "different" with others even if you are more normal than them in ways others are.