"Something in Common"

Young adults have something in common with teenagers, at least for people in this day and age, my generation, Generation XY, looking with something in common with the age of a teenager I mean.

German Cross Identification

I wonder why Germans and German-Americans have a bone to pick with me racially like I did something when they marry or identify with Scottish, Italians, Scandinavians, etc.  It should make sense for them to identify with Scandinavians, pretty easily, if anyone.  I probably, besides being 1/2 Chinese/Asian, have French, Dutch, and other things in my changing DNA results.  I think my side came from possibly they said someone who had both French and Dutch before marrying German, something that seems like that I mean.  What are they really trying to say to the average American about how German they are?  I mean all this but not relating to the normal American who has some German some Irish or something.

Coronavirus and Classical Music

It will be hard being interested in classical music with coronavirus, especially as a struggling music student.

Does anything really matter or make sense?

What really matters?  Is it a contest to see who "makes it" rather than who deserves it?  Like getting positive attention socially.

What I Wish I Did

I took art since my first year of high school for 2 years, Talented Music my 2nd and 3rd year, and Talented Theater my 3rd year; plus, I was in a lot of clubs, like drama, Laureate (creative writing,) etc.

Year 1

1 - English 2 (Honors)

2 - Geometry (Honors)

3 - Biology (Honors)

4 - Career Orientation / Civics

5 - French 1

6 - JROTC 1

7 - Band - Oboe

AFTER SCHOOL - Violin

Year 2

1 - English 3 (AP/Gifted)

2 - Algebra 2 (Gifted)

3 - Chemistry (Honors)

4 - World History (Honors?)

5 - German 1

6 - JROTC 2

7 - Band - Oboe

AFTER SCHOOL - Violin

Year 3

1 - English 4 (AP/Gifted)

2 - Advanced Math / Trigonometry (AP/Gifted)

3 - Physics (Honors)

4 - American History (AP/Gifted or Honors)

5 - German 2

6 - Health / Free Enterprise

7- Band - Oboe

AFTER SCHOOL - Violin

College - Violin & German

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Why am I not good enough for nice people in good families?

I notice I seemed like I was taken apart and pushed in the wrong direction when I was younger, like I did something bad… but I'm so good most all of the time, though weird things can happen… It seems to have affected how I look, feel, and live in the world.

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Why do so many people take piano seriously yet…

…people in things like band look down on the piano?

It doesn't seem like people who take piano are gonna be a concert pianist because I can't imagine them practicing like it.

People in school band are just there for the ride, they are there anyway and practice as a group, which in turn motivates them to probably practice enough at home to do exceptionally well.

"For Better or For Worse, in Sickness and in Health"

That's funny an older lady I like has me left thinking she says she can take on the world's itch for sex, at least in a group form, because after she does it I think she must feel a ricochet of stimulation against something about it.  Does this make sense?  Are we better off?

Like, yearn for an adult to coo you about meaning of things in the world, the dosage of mediation will be from her, maybe stemming from over in L.A. or something but not sure.  Looking for entertainment?  It's been offered in better form possibly but use my relationship with her to do it or things about her that make her who she is otherwise, in a funny way though, should this route be successful actually.  I try not to perpetuate it, as it's considered bad and usually not what's pertinent.

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Re: Europeans (People From or Maybe With Recent Heritage From Europe)

It's funny how Irish people try to bar off Americans from Germany but the Irish themselves try to appeal how they are not English but more like Germans.

Bored

People keep having weird experiences about me, like I'm left out to be seen as in trouble for things like what they think my ego is like and weird experiences.

Waiting and Watching

People seem to be waiting for something bad to happen to me so I can't enjoy life before they start acting better again.

Feeling Down

I had hit my table when people made me mad, and it seems to have damaged the nerves in my arms and made it harder to play violin.

Nothing to Hope for in the Field

Late Boomers are retiring and taking a back seat to life with their children born in Generation YZ as their priority.  They are embarrassed and trying to save the the generation of their children born in Generation YZ and sacrificed the well-being of Generation X for no reason, not letting us feel on top of things like we're on hold but no one ever comes, like to talk to us.

I feel tricked for 15 years kicked out of the kind of music degree I want because I seemed shy they claimed.  I was contemplating going into film acting but didn't.  I got on pills I could get off of if I live alone, and they make me tired.  My mom died and my dad has a terminal illness, so I will just live in a group home, at least for now.